Coming down
to Kerala on a break is always such a pleasure! It is where you have grown up,
after all, and spent many years, interspersed with joyful and not-so-joyful
moments. The climate is the same, the roads are as dingy, there are myriad
flats in place of individual houses, and all’s well in God’s Heaven.
The only
thing that remains unchanged, and will always do, is the attitude of the people
here. We Malayalis have a style of our own, which grants us the leeway to be
extra familiar, and one step forward would take us to the brink of rudeness.
And from the brink to a topple-over is the easiest step forward ever. It
doesn’t even need a shove, however much the other party is provoked!
I walk into
a friend’s home, and after the customary hugs, the first statement is, “You've put on weight, you know!” This after regular
walks, a strict diet and numerous packs of Sugar Free sloshing around in your
system! I smile weakly, and nod, hoping that there’s an end to the matter.
But open lips do not zip themselves up so easily! “Your arms have grown
muscles, you know!” The friend’s mother has to add her pennyworth. “I remember
you when you were in college! Such a slip of a girl zipping about on your
moped! Such a pretty sight!” There would be a pregnant pause where I would
heave a sigh of relief and try and change the topic to the pretty flowers in
the garden, the polished tiles on the floor or the darned weather outside! But
obviously my weight is a more entertaining topic, and the tirade goes on. “Your
cheeks have grown!”
How do I
remind them that I was born with apple cheeks, and that cheeks do not magically
appear and disappear, but like Tennyson’s Brook, go on forever? “Uhhh… have you
ever seen me minus my cheeks?” I venture hesitantly, and the reply comes in
like a boomerang. “No, but they have grown rounder!” And the parting shot, a
back handed compliment, if ever there was one. “But the weight suits you, you
know? You look like a mother now!” A statement which will slowly turn into,
“You look like a grandmother now!” if my daughter deigns to turn me into one,
that is!
I stroll on
the road with my sister, Bhanu, who is not even size zero. At sixty plus, she
weighs 35 kilos! By sheer dint of comparison, I would look like a truck beside
her. But it does not help to be told so. As the stroll continues, I see two
familiar faces looming in the horizon and I tell Bhanu, “Watch out! The salvos
are on their way!” And not once am I disappointed.
The elder
lady adjusts her glasses, and looks me up and down. “Put on weight, have we?”
Not that she ever means herself, even if it were true. “Really?” I croak, and
strive to ask about her children, not actually recalling if she has any. But
the second lady, younger and robust, puts a meaty arm on my shoulder and says,
“Don’t you exercise? Or go for a walk?” A rather vague question, coming from one
who is easily the size of a barn! The retorts stay on the tip of my tongue,
maybe because of my upbringing, but I wish desperately at such moments that I
were not so well bred!
I go home
and ruminate moodily. Friends back in Chennai and their mothers and friends’
mothers do not ever call me overweight? Do people in Kerala eat special diets
that make them a trifle more acerbic! And then, Eureka, it strikes me like a
flash of lightning! I assume that people who have seen me as a child and a
teenager still see me in that avatar. And when oft, on their couch they lie “in
vacant or in pensive mood”, I flash upon their “inward eye”. The image remains the same, and it probably jars
them to see me change with the years. However, it would be rather unrealistic
to imagine me as what I was when I was eighteen, especially after a delivery, a
hysterectomy, a daughter’s wedding and half a century of good living! I mean, it would be humanly impossible,
unless you were Peter Pan! Or Rekha!
So I brace
up, with a pretended nonchalance, and let the comments roll off me. I look at
the mirror and see in myself what the others do not – a human face that tends
to smile more than frown, an attitude that prods me on to feel that I am the
best, and above all, a sense of humour that has come down in my genes and
allows me to laugh most things off! Then I sit down at my laptop and hunt for
an apt quote on the subject, till I come across one that “shines like a good
deed in a naughty world”.
"It's an uncommonly dangerous thing to be left without any padding against the shafts of disease." So said George Eliot in Middlemarch, very conveniently, as it seems.
My mood lightens, "And then my heart with pleasure fills/ And dances with the daffodils."
"It's an uncommonly dangerous thing to be left without any padding against the shafts of disease." So said George Eliot in Middlemarch, very conveniently, as it seems.
My mood lightens, "And then my heart with pleasure fills/ And dances with the daffodils."
17th December 2014